The Raw and Unspoken Struggles of Building My Business

Literally, in 10 days I'm gonna be flying to Oklahoma to record for a TV show, like you know, and then they come back a couple days after that and I'm flying out to Miami to speak down there. Then I come back. Then I'm going to Puerto Rico In June I'm going on a trip with my boys this is a business trip to go to Quantum Leap Summit right, you get to spend a day with a billionaire and learn. I'm doing things that most people at this age, especially you know like only dream of right.

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This is Walk to Wealth with your host, John Mendez hey everyone, welcome back to another episode of the Walk to Wealth Podcast. If you're tuning in on YouTube or any of the podcast directories, make sure to do yourself one teeny, tiny little favor and make sure to give us a follow, because I don't want you to miss out on any of the amazing episodes that are coming out this year. So, without further ado, let's get right into this one. So in this episode, I want to share with you guys. I just want to be transparent on this episode. I don't got nothing scripted for you guys. I just want to be upfront.

I feel like an entrepreneurship and I talk about this all the time like the journey. The dark side of entrepreneurship never gets shared and you always look good from the outside, especially if you don't know how many of you guys follow me on my actual main IG, like the John Mendez official one. But it looks like I'm doing amazing. It looks like I'm doing so, so, so well and I'm starting to make progress. I'm not going to stay here and act like I'm not making progress. I'm starting to do better for myself. I'm starting to actually make some money. This past year I actually made a decent amount of money. It's like like mentally, I've seen this one call and it is really resonated with me and really resonated with you. It said it said that I stuck between, damn, I'm so proud of myself and like I'm not working hard enough and that's kind of why I've been.

I feel like I've been in this like limbo state. I don't know what it is or why it is, but I just feel like I haven't been as productive. My discipline, my motivation, has been down, but normally when you have discipline, it doesn't matter about your motivation, you still get the job done. My discipline, I feel like it's been down as well, like I haven't been as active in the gym, I haven't been as in shape and it sucks because, like I still have like shadow abs, like my abs aren't, you know, like set like they used to be, but like they're not. So there's, you can still see, like the outlines. It's like not out of shape, but like I'm out of shape and for my own standard, and it's just like man, I don't know. It's like I kind of have this fog and I just haven't been feeling like myself. I don't know, I can't really describe it, I don't know what it is, but I haven't just been feeling like that fire that I normally have, that when I was like first getting into entrepreneurship and I was pushing like 70 hours like I just haven't had that fire for a few months.

Now I feel like I don't know and I get like spurts where I say you know, I start banging out and doing a whole lot of stuff, and so it's kind of hard and confusing because I get these into these, like these modes where it's like you can just bang out a whole lot and I don't know about, like my body is trying to tell me my sleep schedule has been absolutely horrible. Oh my goodness, I've been struggling to get my sleep schedule back in check. I haven't been journaling right for a long long time now and I haven't been as disciplined on how I spend my days, having been planning out my days in advance Like I like I used to. Just like man, I feel like everything's like crumbling up. I'm like I'm still getting stuff done Right. It's not like I'm doing absolutely nothing.

It's like you know, it's kind of been hard to kind of pick myself back up Because I know I could be doing so much more. I know I could be doing so much more. I know I could be working harder and people say that oh no, john, you're doing great. But it's like I know me and I know what I'm capable of and like this is definitely not the man. Like this is not all of it and I feel like if I was going all in like I could probably get so much more done. I could be so much more further I just been and it's like, and then knowing that I've been slacking just makes me feel like damn.

Like I'm like oh, I don't got nothing going on. I don't know, this is more like a venting session, but like this is the real. Like this is what happens when you get into entrepreneurship. Like it's not all. You know sunshine and rainbows and you know laughs and giggles and trips and flights and travel or whatever. Like that's all cool and I was great, but it's like man, there's a lot of time I spend questioning to myself like yo, what the F is going on.

Like, like, what am I doing? Like I remember, um, so during my challenge I probably talk more about my challenge, my launch, because I said they'd go pretty well, like there's one part of my challenge was like they won, no one bought, and so I was trying to play in a hundred K launch and they won, no one bought. A similar thing. Like I felt so depressed, like I hate saying that because I man, like I should never be feeling depressed Like ever and that's just my own personal belief Like I'm too optimistic, I'm too positive to ever feel depressed and let myself get. But like yo, I felt like, so like I felt like less of a man that day, like that whole Monday I just didn't want to get out of bed, I didn't want to show my face right, like, and then Tuesday I didn't even want to like show my face either. But like, by Wednesday, like Tuesday, I was so like ashamed and embarrassed that I pretty much like I started learning something new.

I love learning, so whenever I learn and get something new, it's like it helps distract me, helps me get my mind off of what the current thing is on. So I started learning something new just to distract myself and try to move on from it. But, like in entrepreneurship, you got to look at the ugly, like the ugly, that's where all the lessons is. So it's like on Wednesday I started rewatching the tape see what I did wrong, see where I could have been improved, and it sucked Like that's like rewatching yourself fail over and over again, like I flopped oh D and I actually I had so much like at stake there it hurt a lot for it not to go the way I wanted. There's all lessons, right, it's all lessons, all lessons.

And then on top of that, on that Friday I knew I had to go meet with my mentor, jason, and then I have to explain to him why the summit flop and then relive it all over again and it's like man, for a while I just feel like I haven't been doing this much, I haven't been as consistent, I haven't been getting the results I expected, as I'm making progress, but to say that I know I could be doing so much and it just kind of sucks being competitive and like I mean, I'm not afraid to lose or fail.

I feel countless times in this journey, man and this stuff I think I usually thought, I usually just share to myself, like I keep to myself Not too many people that you can talk to about it. I got like my best friend, that's about it I'm not sure you have to talk to. That's about it for the most part. Aside from that, like Too many people on this journey at this age that you can just go and chop it up. Well, that's why a lot of my people that connected to it Usually all my networks connections because most people don't really get into entrepreneurship that much at this age and there are entrepreneurs out there.

They're not entrepreneurs, it's just a little harder to find.

I saw it. It is, but like they get lonely sometimes Because, like the people you want around you, you hope that they kind of understand. But they'll never be able to really understand this, and so if you never really have to come see, it's like how to just force to go through a lot of this on your own. I mean, that's the path I want to sign up for, right.

That's the path I signed up for I'm not too hard pressed about it because, like I Know, this is just like a season that I have to get through like man. This season sucks like.

This season really. So I'm laughing because you know I kind of laugh to break the awkwardness in the science. It's I've been in the state which is that I haven't been doing the things I know I should be doing. I just been avoiding them and almost feel like I'm reverting back into the light. Oh, I don't know if I'm just keep burnt out. I don't. I genuinely don't really know what it is, but it's like I haven't been feeling like myself at all.

But, as said, I know no one cares, especially that as a man in this world, if you like, you just say the work just must get done, but your goals don't care about how you feel. Your goals don't care but what you have been on in your life at that point in time, only thing that matters is is the work getting done, and I feel like the work hasn't. I've been stacking up and procrastinating. I've been putting off things that I know I should be doing and this side I'm gonna get back into it. I gotta snap myself back into it. I'm not sure how exactly I would do it yet for life. I just want to come on here. I said I don't really have anything scripted for this episode. I'm kind of just venting on a mic.

You just kind of thought like Entrepreneurship isn't all fun and games. Like you know, it sucks, like genuinely sucks a lot of the time. And then I have my you know my five seconds of fame. I go speak on the stage, I go do a challenge, I go, you know, get a new client and it's like, oh, shoot, this what I'm here for.

But, like man, that's so much about entrepreneurship just sucks, especially like being a solo business owner, like man, and it really like it's a toll on your mentally. Your brain doesn't stop, like you're always thinking you never shut off, you can never escape. It's almost like constant torture, like your mind will never go back to the way that I used to be and there's a quote that says ignorance is bliss, and like, as I start having an older life, that coaches become so much more true Because, like, the more you learn, the more you realize how much you don't act. And then, like you add in the business, it's like now there's people relying on you, people that are counting on you, people you know gave you money and expect the transformation, expect the result that you have to deliver on and then on top of that, like I have a video editor Now, it's also never lying on me and in the future I'll have more people rely on me, right?

It's just like man it really plays a lot on you, man.

It's hard. You said you could never escape it. I've been on my phone a whole lot more to it, just kind of just scrolling my honesty, almost just trying to know my brain, just so I get a skate for a moment. But then I always I know like, hey, if I don't get anything done, if I don't show up and I won't get any money, like I'm not gonna grow. Look how I just want to write right now. It's kind of which is where I'm at. Just want to come on here, be transparent, talk about like the entrepreneurship. It's in all fun and games, man, I'll take this over.

Working for someone, you know, every day of the week, I've never working for nobody. I mean, I technically work for my clients. I guess you could say like a transfer, like an employer, screw that. I'm never working for nobody, ever again. If I don't care what I gotta do, I'll find out, I'll find, I figure out a way. I'll do. You know, I'll figure something out. I ain't going back and I can't work nobody, I gotta be my own boss and this is this stuff you sign up for.

Like I said, you know, I feel like a lot of times you people get into entrepreneurship they sign it out of line and I realize, like what this gay whole game is about. Like with this whole game, actually, until this I there's a lot like. The peaks are good, the peaks are high, right, higher than you could ever imagine, but also the valleys, the low points, excited man, they get dark, get real dark Sometimes, but I say this is what I signed up for, so I can't complain about that much and that's what I'm complaining at all. I said these are just thoughts that I usually share with myself, but like I figured if you were sharing Something else, mainly so you guys kind of feel like I'm just in. Like, if you're currently going on this journey and like you're in the thick of it right now, you're in that stage. It's like it's dark man. Say no, you're not alone. Like there's a ton of us out there. If you are looking to get into entrepreneurship, right, just know what you're signing up for. I just said I'm having a blast, don't get me wrong.

Like I'm about to travel. Literally in a Today's, the day I'm recording this right now is the night. Literally in 10 days I'm flying to Oklahoma to report for TV show, like you know, and then they come back a couple days after that. Now I'm flying out to Miami to speak down there. Then I come back. Then I'm going to Puerto Rico, right, then I, you know, in June I'm going on, you know, on a trip with my boys.

This is a business trip, not a front like a personal trip. I'm tripping my boys to go to quantum leap Summit right, it gets to see, you know, spend a day with a billionaire and learn, like I'm doing things that most people could, at this age Especially, I don't like only dream of right and I'm still in the beginning stages. I'm not as that, I'm not a pretty shot at, but I'm working, starting to get recognized, people start to notice me, but at the same time, like I'm in stress, like I've been stressed, like you know I spend. If it doesn't help that I've been losing sleep. So it's like now I'm just stressed and tired and I need to find a way to get back at my energies up. Man, get my testosterone, love, get back to like freaking, impeccable me. Like you know that Freakin, untouchable, invincible me. I can just do anything. But man, I love rambling.

That's all for this episode. I said I just wanted to be transparent with you guys and share with you guys like what's kind of been going on. It's that I haven't been feeling like myself, but it's just for a season now. Next, I think I got some fire series. You got playing I think one of the series that Is gonna be super beneficial I'm gonna share with you guys. I got into public speaking and having able to speak in front of hundreds Only 22. So that's all for this episode. I'll catch you guys in the next one, stay tuned.

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